homecoming
i found my home again, it was always there for me, my body.
it’s not like that all the time, i know very well times of hovering over the ground, living in the tempting realms of mind, disconnected from the body. then anxious and lost, wandering outside of me, looking for the sense of stability somewhere there, nowhere near. without noticing that it was much closer than i thought.
there is a place, that is safe, always available, there’s everything what’s needed at the moment. a real home. this place is own body.
that’s a homecoming.
finding safety in being in the body.
we tend to live in a head space, where emotions translate to words, but feelings are senseless. the void grows, alienation starts and we forget, that below the swirling thoughts, we can rest in the body and feel safe again, feel home.
until death separates the spirit from the flesh, body is the only certain home on this planet. the external ones can collapse or there will be a need to move out. “maintain your home” takes on a deeper meaning.
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over the past weekend i created a supportive environment to connect with women close to my heart and tapped into flowy states of being, dismantling stagnant energies and surrendered to softness and inner calm. today i’m fresh to see the contrast between being stuck to a low state and realigning to the wellbeing.
the energy shift is unbelievable. over the years i noticed the trust building within myself and restoring the inner authority. each time i go back to myself, it brings my life energy and willingness to act back. frustration and hopelessness is gone. i’m more immune to fear-mongering. i feel good with myself, the mind is calm, the body more spacious inside. i feel at ease. there are many many more rewarding changes.
simply, i can’t live the life without my soul enjoying it anymore.
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now i’m reflecting on memories of being unaware, how important it is to feel safe in own body and how to recognise if the body feels safe (that’s another story for another time). I entered the path of self-discovery, because i quickly realised i don’t even know myself. i had to unlearn many convictions and rewrite the story about myself. it is a lifetime project, in some sense.
it is not easy at the beginning, it is a process and it takes time. it also does not last long without awareness. and once you reach it and then lose it, don’t feel bad about it. start again, there is a way back. life is liquid between getting lost and getting found. the key is to know, remember and act to come back to the self. you have a choice. in every situation you can be powerful or powerless. it’s up to you which way you choose and what consequences you will carry.
i believe that having a good relation with the self creates good relations in general. the outside comes from inside. we reflect what we are.
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speaking from experience, a toolkit is needed. it’s a list of things that will help you get back to the self from a low space. each one of us has unique tools suited for themselves, as there is no only one way that can serve everyone. everyone must find it for themselves.
art, astrology, writing, meditation, breathing and movement are my tools, from now on i will share them with you, there is a chance they can help you or inspire you, too.
also, mindscapes — the space to remind you the inner power — is in the making. it gets bigger than intended already. stay tuned!
join yourself on a way back home. to your body.
do you feel connected to yourself? what is your way?
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enjoy the new moon in cancer! which is a beautiful reminder to come back to the self, to soften and to find safety within the self.
hug yourself and stay surrounded by warmth.
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jewellery & photo: Kalina @sensi.kali.jewellery
